Summer Evaluation.

sooo, I had high hopes of getting hot this summer.
FAILED!
DIDN'T get awesome. In fact, I got negative awesome points.
DID NOT get hot. I actually did for about 3 weeks, then lost it all.
DID NOT get crazy at all.

Negative points was for being a tool and naive due to a boy. Perhaps more than one.

not hot is from having my wisdom teeth taken out and gaining weight due to my all ice cream diet for two weeks.

not crazy is due to me just staying home and working all summer.


My summer felt short. Pretty much, I failed summer, but you know what, I think my values changed a little bit half way through. I lost my drive. I'm the only one to blame really. Buuut, over all, summer was chill.

Goodbye summer. You're one HOT momma.

Hey...you look kinda cute.

So this is real. Yeah. My uniform.


weird? that's right. I'll have better ones up when I really have to wear it.

=]

Cheer Camp.

Different. I don't think I've ever had to be around girls so much.
it was a refreashing change. I don't know if I'd like it FOREVER, but for now it's not bad.

But anyway....I have a cheer outfit(s) now, and I have to say it makes it a little more real for me. I AM doing this. I AM doing the unexpected. I AM learning about different interactions already. I congratulate myself for saying positive, even if I'm scared as hell.


Guess what. I'll have a treat for you SOON!
Possibly...A PICTURE of me in the outfit. It'll make it real for you too!
=]
Good to be home where I can blog when I want to.
did a lot of thinking while I was gone....have some gooood topics to discuss and research.

Unexpected.

So from the fall of my last relationship...I can't help but make jokes about myself, as I'm sure others do too. The most common phrase associated is "wow, I sure do know how to pick the winners." So with that, one can tell I'm not too pleased with how things played out with the last guys. So I decided to try something new.


The people who pass the most judgment when it comes to me is Hector and Taylor. My brother, and friend that's like a brother. Always telling me "what are you doing with that guy, you can do so much better" or "wow, he's gay." or "don't date him, you know what he wants." This doesn't make me too happy because they tell me all my choices are wrong. So from now on....well, at least for a while, THEY are picking out my new boyfriends/boys I date. Crazy? yes. However, the upsides to this are that they have really the best intentions in mind for me and if he turns out to be a total loser, than I can blame it all on them! jk, I wouldn't do that, but that is my next plan.

So here is their line up.
Jose, the guy in Hector's band that I occasionally talk to on the internet. Nice boy from what I can tell, but really I don't feel I know him, so yeahhhhh. I feel a date with him would be awkward since we don't like, hang out....ever.

Then Frank. So Frank is actually an exboyfriend's brother. Also a nice guy, and I know him pretty well, but I don't feel we'd be a great couple. Interesting is what I would call it. He's a wonderful friend, and says I'm hot, but yeaaaaaah, still my ex's little brother.

So hector gives it to me like this "Jose will be nice to you and treat you right. Frankie, well, he would treat you right, but with profanities involved like 'hey bitch, get your fine ass over here' so you chose which you would like"

So this is what I did. I told Jose about what was going on and how these two have actually been wanting me to ask him out on a date for about 5 months now...and he said he would hang out with me, and we'll tell everyone it's a date.


Shhhhh, it's a secret.

Tomorrow.

wisdom teeth are getting pulled.


ouchie, right?
well, all I have to say is I'll be sure to tell you how it goes. I've never been put under before. It's going to be weird. I hope I don't feel too bad, since I have work the next day.

Daddy's little girl.

got her car fixed today.
by daddy.


Daddy James, you're my hero! You're so handy!

Is it weird that I call him Daddy James, because he's my only dad, my biological one...
I'm just weird.
But my car is fixed, my parents aren't mad, and I have a whole summer to make my bitch.
=D

I fudged up.

fml.
I fucked up my car.
Took off the front bumper.
I cried for a few. When I see the dent I left after reattaching it, I get really sad.
I hate my driveway. I hate the fence I hit. I hate that I have two cars in my half a drive way.
Hmmmmm. My parents aren't mad, but I am.


set back in getting awesome....getting stupid for making the car ugly.

Last night.

I go to hang out with My friend Kyle and his friends...
and one of the best things happened.

HIS FRIEND SAID I WAS HOT!
Now this may seem like no big deal to most people, but for me, it was.
My summer is here kinda!
I don't know what I did, but I'm thinking it was the hair.

Now I feeeeeel good.

and I just got a check for 180 dollars, so I'm thinking shopping this weekend with my boyfriend is going to be just swell. Hot girl clothes here I come.
but if you read this, you should give me ideas of hot girl clothes. yeah?

Licensed

So me, being the new licensed driver that I am, love to abuse my privilege by doing stuff I wasn't able to do before, and doing things I'm not really suppose to do.

Tonight. WOW. My parents let me take the car, that will hopefully be mine, ALL MINE, in a week or two, and I just drove around. Ridiculous. Picked up Samantha, Then drove randomly to get Hep, then to Ripon, then to In'n'out, then drop him off, then to my house, then to do a random thing, then took that girl of mine home. That's a lot of stuff.

The random thing that I did. I'm either really stupid, really nice, or possibly both. I drove to McDonald's, and waited in a line that took forever, to get a boy that I'm not even dating, two double cheese burgers. But that's not the ridiculous part. He can't open his door in fear of waking his parents that must wake up soon, so he has his tie tied to his cymbal bag, and lowers it from his second story, so I can stick the food in there and then he can pull it up and eat it. When he asked me to do this, I kinda laughed, thinking he was kidding, and nahhhhh, he wasn't. I have never done something soooooo funny and ridiculous for someone who wasn't even my boyfriend.

I hope to embark on plenty more pointless adventures and random acts of kindness for boys late at night when I'm not suppose to be on the road.
coooooool. My license is the coolest thing that's happened to me since.....ever!
This makes me feel awesome. I"m GETTING AWESOME!

Summer '09

So, if you don't know me, or know me well, I should share with you my summer goals. So far, when I tell people about them, they want to join me in my quest to accomplish these. My goals...

Get awesome-so I was to be awesome. This is because I'm tired of feeling lame. So how do I plan on getting awesome? Simple. Networking. I want to talk to more people, experience all I can, and basically just learn lessons so I can say that I did something other than be lame.


Get Hot- This is another one of those goals that most people don't see how I can accomplish...summer is going to be also dedicated to looking hot. This means I can't be lazy and not do my make up, or leave the house with just sweats and an old tee, or without my hair done. So I plan on getting hot by getting HOT GIRL CLOTHES, wearing make up when I go places, and always starting my day with doing something nice to my hair. Another question you might ask is how do I know this is hot? Most of my friends are guys, and I plan on shopping with them, and when we go places asking them what makes certain girls hot. This is a work in progress, so don't judge my hotness yet. By the time I start senior year though, I want to be BANGIN!


Get CRAZY- so this is just basically doing whatever I want. It's part of getting awesome. I'm not saying that I'm going to be hella drugged out or anything, but I do want to just do anything and everything that seems to be like fun. "FUCK IT, I'M GOING TO TRY THIS!"

So if I don't get these things, I'm going to be devastated. I honestly just want to become a better, more confident person. I want people to say "hey, that girl, I'm so glad I know her." So here's to summer goals and GETTIN HOT '09!