failed.

So I go to the doctor's office today.

It's my appendix, most likely.
tomorrow, if it feels bad still, then I'll get test or something like that.

Why today was such a fail.
1. Didn't really accomplish anything at the doctor's office other than establishing that there was something wrong.
2. Urine test...as I pull my pants down to pee, my phone drops from my back pocket, and into the toilet. The good...it still works. Still sucked though.
3.Cheer practice felt absolutely pointless today. like nothing got accomplished.
4. My side hurts, and is warmer on the hurting side. There is something wrong for sure, it's just a matter of time when it gets real bad.


I feel weak and unwell....and my head is really starting to hurt.
NOT awesome dude.

awesome.

My side hurts, like, it's getting intense.

It's warmer on that side of my body, and it's on the lower right side of my abdomen.

Possibilities:
Ovarian problem.
Appendicitis


Let's hope for neither.

I'm going to the doctor's in a few minutes, right before cheer.
Well, fml.

My concerns

are dwindling.
I can't say I'm not still cautions, or have my moments when I doubt everything I trust to be true, but i'm feeling differently about how I view my situations and the people in my life. I feel like a big wall has just been shattered, and i have a new side of me, the side of me that's been aching to come out, is exposed and ready to overflow.

I feel like a dumb girl, but it's a good kinda dumb girl.
oh man, my generalizations shed no light into what this is exactly referring to, but that's okay, because I want it to be general.

In general, this is how I'm feeling.
and it's good.

Youth and Revolt.

So I wish everyone talked like they did in this movie.
all proper with the use of an extensive vocabulary.
I would be much happier and I'm sure the rest of the world would be better off.

Anyway, this movie wasn't packed full of action.
It wasn't rediculously funny.
It wasn't too much of anything.
But I enjoyed it.


I think it's becuase I think Michael Cera is THE MOST ADORABLE!
I swear, he is like my celebrity crush. I think I would want to be his girlfriend ANYTIME. He's just so dang cute and awkward...and everyone knows that's Annas Favorite thing ever...others being awkward. I think it's because it makes me feel less awkward.


Heyyy, go watch it. It was ridiculous.

worried.

Well, I'm worried all the nice words that make me say "aweee" are only to make me say that, and are not backed up with reality.


I need to stop.
I need to live normal.

Hey....NO!

Hoooochie mama.

So I'm at work.
And I'm helping this guy out, like I'm suppose to because I'm at work and customer service is key.

The order is almost done, Nachos and a small coke.
as I'm putting the lid on the coke, he asks me...
"Aren't you Matt's girlfriend?"
My eyes widen, my face loses all expression, and I slowly shake my head and say "No...I am not"
and then he replies with
"Oh, because you're marcus's girlfriend now, right?"
and my eyes get kinda squinty, because I have no clue who this guy is, and I don't think I've ever seen him before in my life and follow it with a
"uhhhh, no"

"oh, so you just talk to all these guys?"
"I guess I do"

later, as I hand back his change, I say "Wow, you really know how to make me sound like a hoochie"

How embarrassing.
thanks man.

I'm still curious as to who this guy is...and how he knew so much. Kinda creepy though. I'm going to make it a point to meet with this guy again and find out how he became so knowledgeable. And if he is so knowledgeable, why he phrased it that way knowing all the events that took place in between.

Oh anna preston...

Thought.

some things will never be the same.

and some things will never change.


once we accept this, we have truly reached enlightenment.


I'm trying to get there.