What if?

Ummm. well, most people have that person that seems ideal.
Like, the person who you just know would be perfect for you, if things were to work out the way they should. And if you don't have one of these people, chances are you either don't care, or you're with someone you really love.

I think your mission should be to get rid of that what if person.
I know someone, who has a girlfriend, and loves her a lot, and she loves him back. they're happy together, and fight like normally people do sometimes, but HE has a what if person. He feels for some other girl, he wishes things would be perfect so THEY could be together, and often ponders if he'll ever get his chance to sweep her off her feet. But this doesn't stop his life from happening. He still has that girlfriend that he loves, he still has good times with her, and has been with her for a long time. I think if he was to go out with this other girl, and they broke up, she would still be his what if person UNTIL he found someone who makes him know things are right.

So if you are in a relationship, I think it's okay to go into it even if you have someone else on your mind, or in your dreams, but try to find people not to fill your physical needs, find someone who could possible take away your doubts.

For My Gurrrrl.

So today, i was talking with a close friend of mine, who is having a hard time.

I felt bad, because I couldn't lie to her, and tell her things would get better, or easier, or anything. All I could do is tell her, bluntly, was "i'm sorry, but things just get more complicated as time goes on. You're at a rough part, i know, I've been there, but things aren't going to get any easier."

Routines. If you have the same boyfriend for a long period of time, it's hard not to just go for their hand, or give them that extra long, warming, hug, or sometimes feel like you should go in for a kiss. That's what you're use to, and that's all there is to it. It's hard to break those habits, and it's even harder for you to see that they could just pick up those habits quickly with others. If you never felt like this, you haven't been in a good relationship yet.

I think it's hard to get over people if it was a good relationship for any period of time. You should feel something after it. Like wishing things were better. If you don't, it wasn't worth your time, and you should feel dumb. I'm not making fun of anyone, because I've been there too, but really, as sad as it sounds, you should strive to look for these things. Strive to look for the people who can hurt you. Look for the people who have possibilities of making greatness with you. Even if you don't make greatness, those are the people you need. Because you know if something, one little variable was different, things would be amazing. And everyone deserves amazing. Striving for it should be your motives behind everything. I've you don't think about going back ever, I'm sorry. Doubting if you made good choices to let things leave, or for you to leave, tells you that that person was totally worth your time, and that you almost got it right. You're were close, but you also know that they are not for you, which is one down out of 6 billion people in the world. That's something.

So girl, i'm sorry you're going through such hurt, i've been there, but know that you're headed in the right direction, whichever way that is, because things COULD have been great, but life happens and sometimes things fall apart, but someday, you'll find something that won't, and you'll know that as their variables change, and yours too, you'll find someone. And that at one time, things were perfect, even if they aren't now. That is definitely something you have to show for the time you spent with them. One day, you'll strike gold. You're too great not to. You're to gorgeous not to. You have a glow about you, and I hope that no one will take that away from you. I love you.

The Freemans.

Definitely a Tight Family.
not only as in close, but cool.
They're all real loving, know how to have a good time, and totally GIVE THE BEST HUGS.
I told them about my blog, and how I wrote about the hugs, and they wanted to show me that they could give great hugs too, so each of them gave me a hug.
Oh, nico gave me a hug also because I think he was hurt that he didn't make my top 10 list.
but I think that's what he gets for not hugging me this week.
If you read this nico, which I have a feeling you will, lol, You're hugs are pretty awesome. I think if you would have hugged me that week during the trial, you would have made the list.


Anyway, they're AMAZING hug givers, and I hope to someday have a family as close and wonderful as theirs. It's an inspiration to me that the word family still has value somewhere, and it's not yet obsolete.

Elani- I don't know if that's how you spell your name, but you're hella funny and I love you. If I didn't, i wouldn't have given you my sweater. =D
Ezera- Hella funny as well. You always know how to play off other people's words, and i think it's great.
Esaies-You're my brown counter part. I love you always. We will get married, and that kiss was just the start. lol.
Evett- You're one of the nicest, most welcoming mom's I know. It's rare to find these days. You inspire me to the max with everything. You take care of yourself, Your house, your children, and everything in between. I honestly think you're amazing, and thank you for the book you let me borrow.

Freeman family, you're the best, hands down.

My top 10 huggers.

1. Esaies Freeman
2. Ryan Melton
3. Karl Mitchell
4.Gerry Cooper
5. Samantha Hyles (Kiss on the shoulder)
6.Cameron Solis.
7. Natalie Abuelhaj
8. Mikey Freitas
9.Tyler Friddle
10. Jose ???(I don't know his last name.lol)


My favorite hug ever.....the one where they hug your head. I don't know what it is, but I love it. Only Gerry Cooper and Camo Solis do this, and i think it's because they're taller than me and it's easier that way, but I love it.
=D

Girls didn't step up their game. I actually don't think I hugged these ladies this past week, but I still remember that they're AMAZING!

looking for a good hug on a bad day, check them outttt!

Hug project.

started Friday.

I'm going to get there.
Probably sunday I'll write my review.


as of right now, I'm going to have to say these are my top runners.
Ryan Melton....I think that's how you spell it.
Esaise Freeman....lunchbag.
Karl Mitchell....One of my favorites always.


All I have to say is, Girls, step up your gameeee.
lol.
And if you want to make it on my list, hug me really well!

i need you!

Suicide. What a crazy subject.

Now personally, I've never known anyone to commit suicide. I'm one of the few lucky ones I suppose. But I really just don't understand it in general. I wish to fully understand it.

Here is my views on suicide.

• I think it's sad if you feel so worthless that ending your life is the only option.

• I think it's selfish for someone to think that suicide will only affect them, and not anyone else. The sad thing is them not being able to fully experience what's out there, or let others experience them. The world has so much to offer, and you can offer so much to the world also, so why are you going to call it quits early. You're being unfair, and selfish to deprive the world.
• Why are you not wanting to live your life? There are so many people who wish they could just live a healthy life, terminally ill in hospitals all over, and you're just so quick to throw your life away.
• The most sad thing is not having people to make you feel wanted. Not having someone to stop you. Not having someone to make you want to live. These people exist. They thrive off the lives of others, and maybe you haven't met them yet, or you don't know they feel this way, but they're out there.

I feel bad for these people who feel this is only option. I hope I never lose the will to live, because I know i'll never commit suicide, I would feel too guilty, and would just deal with it.
But then again, who feels guilt after they're dead?

But this guy, he's different...

just about the most cliche statement known to the female mouth.
I don't understand what they mean by different.
Okay, so what are we at, 6 billion people in the world? And somehow girls think that find an "original." Uhhh, i find this highly unlikely. I think everyone is a little unique, but there is always going to be someone out there who is almost the exact same, as much as you try to deny it. How different can someone be anyway? And if he's so different, how did you manage to snatch that one?

Even if you don't think you can get anymore cliche than that, here comes the winner..."all guys are the same." Bull fuckin' shit dude. I know i just said that there is no originals really, but this statement is so degrading to males. Honestly, it's like sexism to me. Clumping all guys into one group saying that all they want is sex is such a lie. I can say I've met some of the sweetest guys ever, and that that is not their only motive. Sure, it may be one, but it's not every guys priority. I think I've actually met more girls who are like that then boys.

I hate grouping people up, as if they don't have a story. You can't clump up something as broad as a sex, and give it a huge title. It just doesn't work that way, and if you think about it mathmatically, the chances of getting all the males in the world to be the same, or have one thing they all have in common, is very little to none.

I've been slacking on writing, I know. I've been busy. but don't you worry, I have plenty of ideas I can just go on and on about.