Well....matt's out.

doesn't want to wait anymore.


understandable.
ouch.


Well, I told him not to leave.
and failed to sway him.
NEVER have I asked someone not to leave.
It hurts my pride I think, and makes me look weak.
totally out of character for me. I'm much to proud to say those kinda things, but that's what I did, and don't know why, because who would want someone to come back if they wanted to leave anyway? I mean, that's not healthy, won't be healthy, and never will be healthy.


I didn't cry about this, which I guess means it's not too bad.
but I can't say I don't feel dumb about it all.
I actually feel quite relieved about it though. And I don't know why.
Goooodbye stress? hopefully.